It’s been awhile…
I know I have not written much lately, but I would like to take the time to talk about what is going on in my life. Back in December I graduated with my Masters, and since then I have been trying to find a profession to utilize that degree. On top of that, I have been trying to make being a writer work for some extra cash because, well, I need the extra money. All of this has accumulated in some serious anxiety and depression about my future.
Back when I earned my first bachelor’s degree, I was working at a drugstore. I didn’t really like the job, but I worked there because I needed the money and figured it would be just until I got my real job that I would get with my new degree. Like every new graduate, I started applying for every job that I could find because I was certain that I would find something new. Six years later, I was still there.
At some point, you just give up and accept your fate. I was never getting out of that place. That was my first real experience with depression. Nothing mattered and I felt lost. My self-confidence was trashed and did some things that I’m not proud to have done. Something needed to change, and that meant me going back to school.
Fast forward to 2014 when I graduated with my second degree. This time things were different because I had employment before I graduated. It felt nice to be able to walk away from school knowing that I was free from having to work somewhere that I did not enjoy. Things were good, and I was in full control of my anxiety.
Being someone that is always on a quest to learn more about everything, I decided to get my Master’s on a whim. I had experience working at a university and wanted to make a career move into teaching the thing that made me happy. After some research, I knew that I had to go back to school again. Working full-time and working on my masters was tough, but I made it through.
So here I am with a master’s degree, but once again no job. Don’t get me wrong. I love the job I have now, but it’s not what I want to be doing. I want something that excites me and gives me a challenge. Those same feelings that I had when I received my first degree are bubbling up again. Hopefully, it won’t be another six years before I can move on from this place.
There are a few blogs that I follow when I need some motivation. Here are a couple: